25 Years Ago, On This Day...

I was born!
Today we are celebrating by spending the day at home, mostly. Maybe a walk to the thrift store and then probably food and karaoke tonight! Nothing too crazy.

So, I've been living in Ramona, CA since August. I love it. This single mom thing is the hardest thing I've ever done. I feel I am being tried in nearly every area of my existed. But I do believe that Heavenly Father has a plan for me and my family. And I am happier than I have ever been. I know that there is nothing too impossible for me to accomplish.

I'm working as a massage therapist in a salon, Artistry in Hair. Slowly building up clientele. I love what I do. I really believe there are many alternatives to "western medicine" although, I also firmly believe that modern medicines and alternative medicines should be used together.
I'm still working towards my goal to work on movie/tv sets. But Ramona is a good place for me to get back on my feet. I have great family out here and everything is in walking distance (which is good for me, since my car broke down and is apparently unfixable :()

We got a buddy for Jasper. He was so lonely. We found a Jack Russell Terrier, he's 2 1/2 years old, his name is Wilbur and he is Wesley and Christy's bestest buddy. He's very vocal, but generally only when I talk to him (or rather, I bark to him)

I love our apartment and love my life, trials and poverty included. Mostly because I know I am doing all that I can to get out of it. Ellen Degeneres, did you get my letter?!
I'm going make some breakfast, clean up and bake a cake. I've got to call my aunts and see if one of them wants to make a trip to Poway or Escondido today, I need to find a craft store and a comic book store (I can't wait to get my hands on Berserker 3)!

Well, I'll post pictures when I'm actually at my computer and we are hooked up to the Internet, for now it's iPhone tweets, blogs and facebook updates for you!


Loves! XOXO

As promised...

Here's a little update.
So this summer has been spent bouncing back and forth between Utah and California.
I went down at the end of June with my mom and we did some research and looked around at areas and jobs and such.
As you know, I got a job and then it didn't work out, so I had to run back to Cali and get my table and chair.
Then I went back out in July for Comic Con. I drove out with Aubrey and we had a blast. It was kindof like my Re-Bachelorette party. To celebrate my "divorce". I realize this may be sick and twisted to some people, to celebrate a divorce. Which may seem tragic. But it was a good thing, and it took a long time, and I felt the need to celebrate. And we did.
I attended a few panels: Chuck, Psych, Burn Notice, Quantum Quest, Bones, Top Cow (comics) and a few others, but those were my favorites!
I also purchased some fun exclusives, played some games. Got some autographs and spent some time on the main floor. I made a lot of friends and some good contacts for networking. As I have mentioned, my goal with massage is to end up working on television/movie sets. The cast and crew do a lot of physical work, which I want to aid them in making it easier, preventing and faster healing injuries, etc. But anyway, it was a good place to make the right kinds of contacts for this field.
We also did some celebrity sighting. My favorites were, of course, Caitlin Crosby and the Chuck cast, including Zachary Levi and Scott Krinsky. I also got to meet the Divide Pictures crew - Milo(Peter Petrelli on Heroes), Russ and Dino. I'd say they were my favorites. Well, them and of course, Zachary Levi. They were just so down to earth and seemed to really appreciate their fans and realize that it is us that keep them doing what they love to do.
I made a lot of fun memories, but didn't have my own camera, so my pictures are all over the place, I'll have to gather them and post a few!

After Comic Con, we came back, and I went back out a week later. Put a deposit down on an apartment and have been trying to get everything in order to be ready to leave next week.

Why the sudden move with no job you may ask? Well, the answer is quite simple, yet so complex: Faith. I have learned through my mistakes that I have made, some big, some with major consequences, and through all of that, I have learned that when God says do something, you just do it! So, I have 1 week left, almost no money and I'm still planning to go.
I'm so stressed, I got sick and I'm a wee bit nervous. But, at the same time, I feel so good about this. I just know if I keep pressing forward, God will come through.

I've had a lot of struggles with keeping my faith this year. But, I do believe in God. I do believe in Jesus Christ. And I am very greatful for Joseph Smith for asking questions and his hand in bringing forth the Gospel in its fulness in this final dispensation.
I know he is there. I have been questioning his prescense/existence a lot lately. But tonight when I said the dinner prayer, I felt someone listening. I knew there was someone else there. And I believe it was Him. I believe he loves me and is watching over me. I need to work on having more faith. Indeed.

So, that's basically it! I'm moving to Ramona! I'm so excited!

Happy Birthday Wesley!

Today my son turns 2! Two years ago today I was heading to Utah Valley hospital in Provo for a NST (non stress test) and an ultrasound. As they were checking the levels of the amniotic fluids, I was below a 3. They don't want to ever see you below a 5. So, they said, "hope you didn't have any plans today, because you're having a baby!" I called my mom to tell her to keep Christy over night. I called Rob to hurry over because Wesley was coming!
I sat in the waiting room for about 2 hours before they got me in a room. I was starving, but because I was being put on pitocin, I was forbidden to eat anything but ice chips. Lame!
I started the pit drip about 1:00. A few hours later I got the epidural. At about 9:30, I started pushing. 9:58, he was out. 6 lbs 12 oz, 19", head full of hair. Beautiful baby boy.


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I'll post more later, we've been busy this summer and I have some good news!

The thing about Beauty...

My sister, Christy is in the video. She makes an amazing Vampire. She is so talented! And the music is great! I love Coury Palermo's voice actually. I especially love his version of Another Day in Paradise.



I looked outside the window this morning and was amazed at how beautiful it was. Infact, on my drives to and from California, I am always impressed and just awed at how beautiful it is. I don't think it matters where you live. You can find beauty in everything. The trees, the mountains, the dessert, the forest, the animals, the people. It's all beautiful.

Infact, as a massage therapist, I see many people. (I know I've touched on this subject before) But I really love people. I love the diversity in people. The way we live our lives, the way we interact with people and of course the physical traits. I have yet to meet an ugly person. Yes, we all have flaws. But those flaws are what make us different. They make us unique. They are a beautiful. I don't buy into this "you have to be a size 0 to be beautiful". That's bunk. I think there is beauty in every size. There is a story to every scar. There is something great about being flawed. As Caitlin Crosby sings, "Imperfect is the new perfect."
I highly suggest checking out her site http://loveyourflawz.com/ as well as her new cd.

So, today I give you a challenge: whether you are out and about today, at work or even staying at home working around the house; look for the beauty around you, notice the differences between people and places. Celebrate your differences. Remember, God is the creator of all, and he doesn't make mistakes. He doesn't put ugly into this world. We create it. So, out with the ugly, lets just celebrate and love our flaws!

Because I know you've been wondering...

Here's the rundown of the past weeks events...

Last week I came down to California with my mom to look for a job and a place to live. I met with a chiropractor who was apparently very impressed with my "touch" and my resume. So he offered me the job. The original agreement was only part time and he wanted me to start the following Friday. So Tuesday, I packed all of my boxes and left only what Christy and Wesley would need for the next few weeks before my parents brought them and my things out to me. Tuesday afternoon, the dr called and said he had changed my schedule. He wanted to change it monday - saturday, except Thursday 8-6:30. Well, because I have children and am a single mom, that schedule is impossible for me to do. Not to mention the amount i would be spending in day care. So I came back with an 8-2 schedule. He didn't like that and told me he had better keep looking and good luck in my search. He actually was quite rude on the phone. Well, after an anger episode and the thought of a good cry (I can never seem to actually follow through with a good cry), I decided to go out around Orem and look for a job. Except, I had left my massage table and chair out in Ramona. So, I left Wednesday anyway and am now down here in Ramona to pick up said table and chair, but also to cover some more ground looking for jobs and housing. I had a great interview in Thousand Oaks on Saturday morning, but I don't know that I want to live that far from my california family. So, I'm attending church in the Ramona Ward this afternoon to see if anyone here has any leads for me.
Tomorrow, I think I will go to the San Diego temple. And I think Tuesday I will be heading home. I miss my children. and my little dog.
I have had some fun out here though. Saturday afternoon, I dragged my aunt Siobahn to a comic book signing. Yes, i read comics. :) I got to meet the writers, artists and producers for Beserker. I got my picture taken with Milo Ventimiglia. He's really nice, and has really warm cheeks!

I'm feeling quite discouraged, but I also know that I'm doing what the Lord wanted me to do, so I know that there will soon be something to make sense of all of this.

I'm grateful for the Gospel of Jesus Christ. And with that, I'm off to see Christy Lynn and then off to church.

Love to you all!

Theft - Warning for Women

THEFT - WARNING for Women

You've heard about people who have been abducted and had their kidneys
removed by black-market organ thieves.

My thighs were stolen from me during the night a few years ago. I went to
sleep and woke up with someone else's thighs. It was just that quick. The
replacements had the texture of cooked oatmeal. Whose thighs were these and
what happened to mine? I spent the entire summer looking for my thighs.
Finally, hurt and angry, I resigned myself to living out my life in jeans.
And then the thieves struck again.

My butt was next. I knew it was the same gang, because they took pains to
match my new rear-end to the thighs they had stuck me with earlier. But my
new butt was attached at least three inches lower than my original! I
realized I'd have to give up my jeans in favor of long skirts..

Two years ago I realized my arms had been switched. One morning I was fixing
my hair and was horrified to see the flesh of my upper arm swing to and fro
with the motion of the hairbrush. This was really getting scary - my body
was being replaced one section at a time. What could they do to me next?

When my poor neck suddenly disappeared and was replaced with a turkey neck,
I decided to tell my story. Women of the world, wake up and smell the
coffee! Those 'plastic' surgeons are using REAL replacement body parts -
stolen from you and me! The next time someone you know has something
'lifted', look again - was it lifted from you?

These same thieves come in my closet and shrink my clothes! How do they do
it?

Last year I thought someone had stolen my Boobs. I was lying in bed
and they were gone! But when I jumped out of bed, I was relieved to see that
they had just been hiding in my armpits as I slept. Now I keep them hidden
in my waistband.

THIS IS NOT A HOAX. This is happening to women everywhere every night.

WARN YOUR FRIENDS!

It's officially official!

The judge has signed, I am no longer married. :)
I think I am going to throw a re-bachelorette party when I get back from Cali. :)
And then I think I will celebrate once again next month at Comic Con. I am so excited to be going to Comic Con this year. Last year was so much fun and I look forward to making this an annual family event as my kids get older. Christy still talks about it. She liked shopping at the "Comic Squares".
There are only few more things that need to be taken care of. I need to get the car signed over to me. I would like to finish paying off my car and some more of my cc debt, then I think I'll need to start looking into a new car. Mine is still okay, but it makes me nervous for traveling to and from Utah and California.